Living – day 2

Yesterday I began a commitment to myself.  Since my chance of living according to  statistics is only 20%, I find it very important to trust that God is going to save me.  I’ve already beaten the 5 year survival rate from my 1st diagnosis which gave me a 50 to 70% chance of surviving 5 years.  So I’m planning on continuing to believe that God does have a future planned for me like he told me 5 years ago.  Since I haven’t done a whole lot with my life in the last 5 years, I figure I have a lot more time.

Yesterday I mentioned that I’ve been praying to God for strength. I sometimes feel like I’m emotionally weak and just can’t do what I need to do to move forward with my life.  As I was doing my daily devotions I found this: Psalms 46:1 says “God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble.”  It dawned on me that what I should be doing is looking to God and ask Him to be my strength.  Nobody can do everything alone and why do I have to work so hard for strength and courage when I can just depend on God for all that.  He will take care of everything so I don’t need to worry about developing more strength.

Joel 3:10   “Beat your plowshares into swords, and your pruning hooks into spears; let the weak say, I am strong!” NASB