Hello Everyone!
Last Thursday I got my 5th round of chemo at Swedish hospital in Seattle. They gave me a lot of extra medications so I was there for over 5 hours. One of the medications they gave me was an antihistamine, benadryl. Wow! That was terrible. I’m going to ask them not to give it to me next time. I don’t even know what the purpose was, but it made me very dizzy and I thought I was going to black out. I was so tired I couldn’t think straight, then I had to drive home. Ben hung out with me, but he lives out there so he couldn’t bring me home. I guess next time I’ll be smart and have someone with me. Since I had the benadryl, my good three healthy days were shot and I’ve done nothing but lay on the couch since. (I should explain that I’m usually feeling fine the 1st 3 days after chemo, the 4th day I usually begin feeling extremely tired and nauseous). Tomorrow I have to go for blood tests to make sure the RBC, WBC and platelet count are good. I have a feeling I will need a blood transfusion before the next chemo round, but we’ll see. If anyone is reading this, you can pray that my blood counts come up.
As some of you know, I don’t have high speed internet right now because there are no towers where I’m living now. I know it’s rediculous. It makes it a little more challenging to do my blog.
I’m so thankful or all the prayers I’m getting from so many people. It really means a lot to me. Most of you know that the odds are not in my favor this time around according to the text book statistics. I still haven’t told my story that I keep promising, so you don’t know everything but I believe with all of my heart that God has a plan for me and I’m going to be ok. Here’s the thing I’m struggling with…I know that all I have to do is ask and God will give me the desires of my heart.So I’m wondering why the cancer came back. I hope I’m not misreading God. Its much easier for me to believe that I’m going to live than to believe I’m going to die. I’ve also be reading the “Purpose driven Life”. It talks about how we are not put on this planet for OUR purpose but for GOD’S purpose. I don’t know, it gets confusing to me. I hope I’m not just believing what I want to believe. Most of the time I don’t even think about it, especially since I believe I’ve gotten so many promises from God. It’s just not always easy living with cancer, but after I’m still alive in 5 years I’m sure my purpose will definitely be clear.
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